Becoming A Beginner Again
When was the last time you did something for the first time? Or, the last time you had a huuuuuuuge adrenaline rush? Or, the last time you felt fear?
Seth Godin mentions in his podcast [ps — if you are interested in marketing//startups, this guy is amazing] that most people have not done something for the *first time* since they were 19. This is one of my biggest fears — becoming stagnant. I want to always be adventurous + creative + spontaneous + weird [or crazy — you choose ; )], continually growing, evolving, + becoming a healthier + happier me.
Last year, I challenged myself to do one thing for the *first time* every month — eating a new cuisine, exploring a different city, or experiencing something I’ve never done before.
Through these experiences — I hoped to push myself a little [or a lot!] out of my comfort zone.
While I did have new [great!] experiences, yes — I realized I never really *got out of my comfort zone*. I know that because all of those experience I was easily able to say yes to. There was no tug between my head + heart.
Last week, I *officially* became a certified yoga teacher. During our graduation, our leader asked us what has changed within us these past 8 weeks. Most of my fellow yogis shared beautiful changes such as finding inner peace, discovering their voice, becoming more spiritual, etc.
My answer was a little bit different: I have never been so stressed in my life. I finally felt *fear* for the first time in awhile — I tasted what getting out of my comfort zones means to me. ++ it was CHALLENGING. So challenging. But, it was also humbling + beautiful. I was truly a beginner again.
I recently read a quote: Our fears revel what we care most about. ++ I think for a lot of things, this is true. I felt fear during Yoga Teacher Training because I cared so deeply… I didn’t want to fail… I wanted to be a good yoga teacher. So I studied + practiced on repeat until I started dreaming in yoga sequences [true story]… ++ during all of this time I felt SO MUCH resistance — I constantly wanted to nap [totally related to this post] + procrastinate by doing other things, even though I knew I needed to focus on yoga.
It was such a wild ride — a pull between my head + my heart. My heart knew that this was the path I was meant to be on, yet my head [aka fear ; )] kept telling me that I was wasting my time — that I shouldn’t be doing this…. that I’m not going to be a good yoga teacher.
FEARS SUCK. ++ it’s crazy how much more often fears arise when you are a “beginner” again in a field that you also very passionate about. BUT, as you know… life is about dancing with fear. It’s about learning how to embrace fear + how to control your fears so that they don’t overwhelm you.
I’m thankful that I took a chance on myself — that I had the courage to say yes… + to put in the work. I found my voice as a yoga teacher, + I’m excited to incorporate more yoga within CHAARG.
The journey is far from over. It’s only beginning.
Journal prompt — Is there something that’s tugging at your heart that maybe your head is unsure about? Dive in.
Rooting for you always,