CHAARG has been a life-changing decision that I made in this so called crazy life. A passion is ignited in me to be the best version of myself, always. #CHAARGBOOTYCAMP was an even bigger game changer for me in the journey that it has brought my life. ++ being a CHAARG City Leader makes me want be even more involved with CHAARG than ever.
I had been doing so great mentally with my depression + anxiety, probably the best I’ve ever felt + then the #CHAARGBOOTYCAMP Week 2 came + it went downhill. I had to take my mom to the Emergency Room + every part of the hospital that we had to go through was the exact same part that I had to go through when my brother passed away. I kept seeing his death in my head over + over again + it took an emotional toll on me. I broke down at the gym during a workout + had to leave because I couldn’t do it — I couldn’t hold myself up anymore.
At one point, I held a bottle of medicated pills in my hand + thought about taking one — a pill I haven’t taken in almost 2 years. It was at that moment though that I saw all the love + support from this community in the comments on my instagram post about how I broke down at the gym after my mom’s trip to the ER.
I put the bottle down + knew that I could get through it. I didn’t need a pill to make everything okay, I needed myself + the love from people around me. I had girls reaching out to me on insta, FB, + text telling me that I’m strong, that I can get through it, that they are there for me if I need to talk, ++ that everything is going to be okay. I couldn’t have asked for better people in my life to help me get through what felt like me going down into a dark cycle of depression.
After that week + my mom coming home from the hospital, I knew I had seen a true strength in me. I got through something that I wouldn’t have gotten through three years ago. I would have caved + taken an anti-depressant, I wouldn’t get back to working out, I would let my depression take over. I was a fighter + I was ready to truly take on my biggest fit goal for #CHAARGBOOTYCAMP: Fall in love with myself.
I had then realized that a fire was fueled in me ++ I’m never letting it go out.
Falling in love with myself has always been a struggle. My depression + anxiety made me see the worst in me. I felt like I was nothing. I had gained weight + picked my body into pieces. How could I love myself when all I felt was damaged, scared, + not good enough? How could I let someone else love me when I couldn’t love myself?
I joined CHAARG in January + it has helped me see myself in a new way. CHAARG has helped me consistently stay on top of my fitness journey, but also my mental journey. During this FitPlan I felt a new mindset. I was no longer picking my body apart, I was staring in the mirror + saying “DAMN GIRL—LOOK AT THOSE GAINZ” — every day feels like a day closer to where I want to be physically + mentally. I am starting to love myself for all the good, bad, faults, highs, lows, + everything in between.
On a list of things I love, I could name pizza, running, oreos, hot yoga, CHAARG, my family, friends, music, laughter… but I never thought about loving myself. But with the help of #CHAARGBOOTYCAMP loving myself is getting higher + higher ++ I cannot wait for the day that loving myself is number one on that list. I’m taking everything one day at a time, step by step. At the end of the day I know that I have 2500+ girls from this CHAARG community supporting me and my journey to finding true self love.
“AND IF I ASKED YOU TO NAME ALL OF THE THINGS YOU LOVE, HOW LONG WOULD IT TAKE FOR YOU TO NAME YOURSELF?”
Left side before. Right side after. I see some differences physically which is so exciting, but above anything I’ve seen a huge change mentally which is even better. This community is a beautiful thing. My mom told me tonight that she’s seen such a great change in me since I joined CHAARG + can’t wait to see where my fitness journey takes me. She told me how lucky I am to have heard about CHAARG + that she is so thankful that I have this in my life.[[can we get a CHAARGMom shirt?!]] You ladies help keep me stable! Thanks for killing these past 6 weeks with me.
+ Robyn[@robyn__inchaarg], Virt CHAARG
#CHAARGJourney highlights our members’ amazing journeys through CHAARG — physically, mentally, emotionally. Robyn was one of the three winners of the CHAARG BOOTYCAMP 2015. We could not be more proud of her for finding self-love + we’re so happy to see that she’s found friendships along the way. We cannot wait to follow her journey through CHAARG!